3 posts tagged “wachovia”
"Sometimes it is harder to deprive oneself of a pain than of a pleasure."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald
Hello everyone. I'm just beating myself up again. I don't know why I put myself in positions where I know I won't leave happy. Every time this happens, I ask myself why I pour all my effort into something that is completely fruitless and vow not to return. Today is the day I turn my life around! Quit smoking and quit seeing him. But when the next opportunity comes along, I jump at it because things will be different. Right. There are things that I feel like I need in my life, one of the main ones being affection. I am picky about where I get that affection from as I don't typically enjoy being touched, even hugging my parents too much but I can't get affection from who I want it from and it's depressing. I have made so many sacrifices and lost a lot such as friends, my reputation to complete strangers, among other things. The only benefit of this situation is that it helped me eliminate some relationships from my life that lacked a solid foundation. Friends that can't love you through your mistakes as well as your triumphs aren't really friends. Somehow I can't really convince myself that I've made a mistake. When I talk to my friends, I always get the same advice and I always agree. Yet, I can never bring myself to act on this advice. What am I hanging on to? Every night, when I realize yet again that I am alone, I realize I'm hanging on to NOTHING, not even air. I feel trapped and worthless.
Anyway, tonight I was supposed to go to Reunion Arena with my dad to see President Bush speak on behalf of Governor Perry's campaign. I don't like Governor Perry and I was rather disappointed to learn that my dad is planning on voting for him. He supports the TAKS TEST! Give me a break. Maybe we should just elect Perry AND Kinky and let all the kids get legally high before taking TAKS. I'm sure that will improve test scores a lot! I got home from work around 5:45 and the doors closed at 6:30 so unfortunately we didn't make it. I'm not so sure if that's a good thing or not. I was starting to think that it might be really boring and the only real reason I wanted to go was to see the president in real life because I may never get another chance. However, the Bushes are members of my church and Laura used to be in my grandmothers Bible study so maybe I have hope for meeting them some day. I just want to SEE him while he's the president of the USA.
Side note: One of my 5 year goals is to meet Bill Clinton so maybe I will meet Hillary, too and you KNOW she's going to be the president.
At the start of every work day, we have something called a "morning huddle" where we discuss numbers, how far we have to go to meet our goals for the month, go over issues that have come up like dress code violations, and congratulate people for making big sales referrals. Occassionaly, one of the 2 managers goes over product information to refresh us. We have recently made a plan for everyone to get a turn at being in charge of the huddle. That means making the chart with all the numbers, planning a presentation about an assigned product and of course, bringing breakfast. Tomorrow morning is my turn to lead the huddle and I'm a little nervous. There are 10 people, including myself, that work in the bank and I know all of them personally so it's not like I'm giving a speech to a crowd, but I just hate standing up in front of people and talking seriously about a topic. It makes my legs shake. So, I'm going to try to sit in a chair and just be really casual about it. I am bringing this really delicious breakfast casserole that my mom made for my huddle. It was has scrambled eggs, cheese, bacon, sausage and some kind of bread/biscuits. Everything gets prepared the night before and put in the refrigerator. The next morning all I have to do is pop it in the oven for 35 minutes and it's good to go. I know everyone will be more interested in my delicious breakfast than the bank account that I will be talking about when everyone already knows the facts!
I don't have any pictures to post except for some pictures of my yellow, pointy toed, BCBG flats that my dog chewed the little leather bows off of. I am distraught. They are some of my favorite shoes and I don't know what to do now that they have these little chewed patches where the little bows were. I bought them at DSW and they STILL cost $80 so aslkd!!! I will post those pictures tomorrow. Bad Mr. Woofcakes, bad!!!
Training isn't as exciting as I hoped it would be. :( I am going to Carrollton tomorrow to be with my mentor. Windows and sun!!!